Friday, March 12, 2010


What you are about to read has not been easy for me to write so I ask that you please try to read with an understanding heart.

As many of you know, I like to pretend that I am a rockstar.

Exhibit A

Somehow I got caught up in the fantasy and I actually started to believe that I was a rockstar. “People like me and I am cool.” I thought to myself. I should have known better. I’ve been chasing “cool” all my life.  Why would now be any different? Despite the absurdity of it all, what I’m saying is true. I actually thought I was pulling off my rockstar status.

I was wrong.
So wrong.

In a single moment, all that I had imagined came tumbling down. With one glance I could see that I had fallen so far behind “cool” that any hope I may have had to catch up was trampled over and squashed. In an instant my delusions were revealed and I learned that a rockstar at heart is not a rockstar at all. I lost all rockstar qualities when I saw this.

Exhibit B

I tried to be as polite as I could in my comment on the rockstar’s blog by stating, “I guess some tastes are acquired, like caviar and dry white wine.” I wanted to like it. I really tried. (Perhaps that is the difference between a real rockstar and one who pretends…a real rockstar doesn’t have to try, they just ARE!)  I even went back to the post, more than once, to study over the comments in hopes of finding something that I had missed. These women were hip and cool why did they like it and I didn’t. I tried to imagine my neck, playing host to such a piece of bling, Alas through all my effort, I just couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t like the necklace. In fact I kept having visions of my great grandmother’s jewelry box getting sick and puking all over that poor girls neck and chest! Perhaps maybe when I can afford to be trendy, I’ll think such accessories are the cats meow but until then, I’ll just have to accept my demoted rockstar status and walk away in shame.

To all true rockstars out there, thank you for humoring me and being nice when I came to play I still love you but I’m going to go back to where I belong now.

Exhibit C

It was fun while it lasted and in the process I think I finally came to understand why American Idol cuts off the auditions at that age the “hip-factor” is completely gone and watching someone try to pull it off is just sad.

Are you a rockstar?


adrienne said...

Lol. No I'm not a rockstar unless I'm cleaning or driving. I put on a great show. I know other drivers think I'm crazy.

Stopping by from SITS.

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Cara said...

While that is not my favorite example of the style of necklace, I do like other examples of the style. Ones without silk flowers on them...

Gwenevere said...

Cara your ARE a rockstar. I've always known it.

Also, do you think those are silk flowers? they look like porcelain or metal painted broach pins to me.

Chelsea said...

You crack me up. I totally want to make a music video like that....that was AWESOME! (I guess that might put me in the not-so-rockstar catagory) but I don't care, I bet it was a blast to make!!!
Loving this blog!

Gwenevere said...

Chelsea...SO MUCH FUN TO MAKE....I've been wanting to do it again, but I've exhausted my entire closet on this one. I would LOVE to be on the other side of the camera to help you make one if you wanna.... It will be What song do you want to sing? I've got the equipment just waiting to be used.

Natalie said...

I like the necklace and the shirt but I dont think I am much of a rockstar. I love your video, by the way.

Erin said...

I have always loved that video! You should've won the contest. I also love karaoke, but that's about as far as it goes. What about a rock band video? That could be fun :-) (Not for me, but you and Chelsea and whoever else wants to do it)

Beth said...

Happy SITS Sharefeast day girl! Loved the that really you? did you make that? hilarious!! i do like the necklace ...on her...with that shirt..not something everyone can pull off. I'm not a rockstar..I'm more of a soccer mom, lol

Amy said...

Is that top & necklace from J. Crew?? I've been drooling over their art house t's for the last few weeks, but can't bring myself to pay $40 for a t-shirt. I guess I'm in the minority, but I kind of like the look :)

Happy SITS Saturday Sharefest!

Sapito said...

Gwen, you TOTALLY can be a rockstar......just not with that song.

Gwenevere said...

Beth-yes that is my in that video (it's even me singing). I used to be a videographer so I have all this equipment laying around that I like to use every once in a while.

That video was something I did a year ago for a contest I entered to win tickets to the american idol Finale. and SAPITO I only had 4 song there you have it.

Amy-yes it was from the J. Crew. Catalog...and I really don't think you are in the minority.